twice in a year.
a person can only take so much pain.
always in my memory
heartbroken.
Monday, September 27, 2010
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
feelings...
Ever have the feeling of being alone even though you're surrounded by people--they all stare at you and keep talking, but your mind is not there--you're floating somewhere else. All you can do is nod and the eyes that stare at you--it can tell that you're empty, lost and can't make it back home.
ever feel so broken that you're beyond repair? even though you tried to super glue yourself back together, you still have cracks that lights shine through, feel the gaps of wind that breeze through--you are not whole anymore.
all the shattered pieces are what use to be you, but now it is a mere recollection of what you would be if you weren't broken.
ever feel so broken that you're beyond repair? even though you tried to super glue yourself back together, you still have cracks that lights shine through, feel the gaps of wind that breeze through--you are not whole anymore.
all the shattered pieces are what use to be you, but now it is a mere recollection of what you would be if you weren't broken.
Need to be away
Recently, I just dont feel like usual self. I've somehow lost myself during last semester and present day.
Love to just be away on a mountain and watch the sunsets/sunrise of days to come.
Love to just be away on a mountain and watch the sunsets/sunrise of days to come.
Monday, September 20, 2010
Sunday, September 19, 2010
2nd week of school
A lot has happened during the summer until now. I can say that lots has changed, and some things are still changing. I do not know what life may bring me but I do know I'll try to accept it even if it's not to my liking.
Emotional coasters are draining and recently I've been drained.
I know I should make the best of senior year, but it doesn't seem like what I imagined it would be.
to the unforeseeable future--
Emotional coasters are draining and recently I've been drained.
I know I should make the best of senior year, but it doesn't seem like what I imagined it would be.
to the unforeseeable future--
Friday, September 10, 2010
Scattered updates from the rest of the trip
9-11th
Class has been cancelled because of the dragon boat festival so I decided to travel. Since Hangzhou was close by I decided why not give it a chance. I actually didn’t know much about Hangzhou before I went. I only knew it was pretty and it had lots of green luscious forests. Since Wu Xuan was here, I knew I wouldn’t get lost or tricked because she knew Chinese.
We bought our bullet train ticket, stood on the long ass line and had to fight to get through the gate. Once we were through the gate, we had to find our train and car number. It only took about 2 hours to reach Hangzhou. We started in the afternoon and got there around 3pm. Once we got out of the train station, I suggested that we try to get our ticket back to Ningbo just in case it’s sold out by the time we wanted to leave. After waiting in line for 20mins, the ticket gate was closed and we were told to go to the other line to wait once again…This is the crappy part about China, some train stations have certain hours the person needs to sell tickets, once that gate closes you need to go to another gate. So even though you’ve been waiting on the line for 30mins, if it closes you still need to wait.
After we bought our ticket to go home, we hopped on a cab and went to our hostel. We called earlier to make reservations, but the people got it wrong. Eventually we got it all worked out and they even gave us a bigger room for no extra charge. This hostel was nice, but we found out later as we tried to take our showers, the shower nozzle was shit! Even though the shower was crap, we didn’t let it deter us from exploring around. Our hostel was in a good location, because it only took us 10-15 mins to get to West Lake. West Lake is the biggest lake in Hangzhou and it’s known for its scenery.
So we decided to walk around the lake before eating dinner. After a while, I was starving and so we went to a pretty big restaurant and got some of Hangzhou’s well-known dishes like dong po rou.
Hangzhou-->dong po pork, temples=Buddhist stone carvings, west lake,
Wu Zhen--? mobbed by cabi drivers, sketchy hostel, illiterate awesome mao ah yi, west gate scenery, white snake story, east gate craziness, acrobat, tourists, chrysthsemthem flower cakes
Back to Hangzhou--> taxi madness, Finding a BK
12th
Classes on Saturday/make up
14th
Saw a chinese movie with double seats
Beijing Week (6/21-29)
Beijing---15hrs on soft sleeper, all girls showers, hot dorm room, managing how to get to hohai from memory, eating Japanese/viet/Korean bbq/Chinese, going to beida, memories of Beijing from before=1 year ago, fat cats
Ningbo 6/30/10
--15hrs on soft seater, no sleep, got sniffles, talked to guy on train, came back and met with downpour of rain which was much needed, saw karate kid.
7/1
Moved into new apartment on 5th floor, found out there’s no internet, a/c
7/2
Meeting to get schedule—will be touring Ningbo with German/Korean kids learning Chinese, flooded kitchen when trying to do laundry.
7/3
Slept all day, bought dvds to watch, no internet! , ate at Steven’s house, parents offered me rice wine (had 4-5 cups) because parents kept pouring…
7/4
Ate a z rock café because it was fourth of july and they had discounts. Had their mushroom burger, it was a bit salty but do-able. Their fries were yummy. Had 2 beers—called it a night.
7/5
Woke up early to go to the countryside to pick some tomatoes and cook our own lunch. I managed the fire because people couldn’t stand the heat. I also cooked two dishes :D met up with the international kids (germany/korea) and had dinner with them after we got back from the country side.
7/6
Woke up early to go to Hangzhou again, walked all over for half the day but didn’t really stop to take in the attractions again. Came back then had dinner at fancy hotel with the other international students and some people performed. Nia went off to chill with them, I was tired so came back to write this journal entry, shower and do some laundry..wow, I’m such a loner…
7/7
Spent day at home
7/8
Expo
7/9
LWT+GERMANS
7/10
Old city and last day of festival, sang=mad
7/11
Ate dinner with Jale, had 58% bai jiu with the head of the department.
7/12
Taught English class about food, jale watched some part, ate lunch at fancy restaurant.
7/14
Taught English to little kids for several hours, they are sooo cute! They were from 1st to 4th grade then ate lunch at Tao laoshi’s house. Had some traditional Hubei food (fried sticky rice) and Ningbo dessert--wine dessert
7/15
Went to ci cheng again but this time with students…My wisdom tooth hurt like a mother!
7/22
Went to a water park in ning hai…it was basically a kiddie’s water park but still fun
7/23
Taught for the last time and ate a vegetarian meal for the first time
7/24
Had final dinner with head of foreign language department—thank god this time there wasn’t any 58% baijiu at the scene
7/30
Went to putuo mountain—it’s guan yin’s bday so mad people on the island. Saw heart stone, turtle stone, temples with beautiful decorations. spent night there, rode rv for first time one beach, climbed lots and lots of temple stairs!
7/31
Came back to Ningbo, hate rude people here especially when hailing taxi’s. think if they cut you they the shit and deserve the taxi—that shit is wrong!
8/2
Going to shanghai, couldn’t get a train ticket so big bused it to shanghai. So many people, taxi rate insane, traffic even more insane…
8/3
Went to xin tian di, chun huang miao, and the bund.
8/4
Stateside
Class has been cancelled because of the dragon boat festival so I decided to travel. Since Hangzhou was close by I decided why not give it a chance. I actually didn’t know much about Hangzhou before I went. I only knew it was pretty and it had lots of green luscious forests. Since Wu Xuan was here, I knew I wouldn’t get lost or tricked because she knew Chinese.
We bought our bullet train ticket, stood on the long ass line and had to fight to get through the gate. Once we were through the gate, we had to find our train and car number. It only took about 2 hours to reach Hangzhou. We started in the afternoon and got there around 3pm. Once we got out of the train station, I suggested that we try to get our ticket back to Ningbo just in case it’s sold out by the time we wanted to leave. After waiting in line for 20mins, the ticket gate was closed and we were told to go to the other line to wait once again…This is the crappy part about China, some train stations have certain hours the person needs to sell tickets, once that gate closes you need to go to another gate. So even though you’ve been waiting on the line for 30mins, if it closes you still need to wait.
After we bought our ticket to go home, we hopped on a cab and went to our hostel. We called earlier to make reservations, but the people got it wrong. Eventually we got it all worked out and they even gave us a bigger room for no extra charge. This hostel was nice, but we found out later as we tried to take our showers, the shower nozzle was shit! Even though the shower was crap, we didn’t let it deter us from exploring around. Our hostel was in a good location, because it only took us 10-15 mins to get to West Lake. West Lake is the biggest lake in Hangzhou and it’s known for its scenery.
So we decided to walk around the lake before eating dinner. After a while, I was starving and so we went to a pretty big restaurant and got some of Hangzhou’s well-known dishes like dong po rou.
Hangzhou-->dong po pork, temples=Buddhist stone carvings, west lake,
Wu Zhen--? mobbed by cabi drivers, sketchy hostel, illiterate awesome mao ah yi, west gate scenery, white snake story, east gate craziness, acrobat, tourists, chrysthsemthem flower cakes
Back to Hangzhou--> taxi madness, Finding a BK
12th
Classes on Saturday/make up
14th
Saw a chinese movie with double seats
Beijing Week (6/21-29)
Beijing---15hrs on soft sleeper, all girls showers, hot dorm room, managing how to get to hohai from memory, eating Japanese/viet/Korean bbq/Chinese, going to beida, memories of Beijing from before=1 year ago, fat cats
Ningbo 6/30/10
--15hrs on soft seater, no sleep, got sniffles, talked to guy on train, came back and met with downpour of rain which was much needed, saw karate kid.
7/1
Moved into new apartment on 5th floor, found out there’s no internet, a/c
7/2
Meeting to get schedule—will be touring Ningbo with German/Korean kids learning Chinese, flooded kitchen when trying to do laundry.
7/3
Slept all day, bought dvds to watch, no internet! , ate at Steven’s house, parents offered me rice wine (had 4-5 cups) because parents kept pouring…
7/4
Ate a z rock café because it was fourth of july and they had discounts. Had their mushroom burger, it was a bit salty but do-able. Their fries were yummy. Had 2 beers—called it a night.
7/5
Woke up early to go to the countryside to pick some tomatoes and cook our own lunch. I managed the fire because people couldn’t stand the heat. I also cooked two dishes :D met up with the international kids (germany/korea) and had dinner with them after we got back from the country side.
7/6
Woke up early to go to Hangzhou again, walked all over for half the day but didn’t really stop to take in the attractions again. Came back then had dinner at fancy hotel with the other international students and some people performed. Nia went off to chill with them, I was tired so came back to write this journal entry, shower and do some laundry..wow, I’m such a loner…
7/7
Spent day at home
7/8
Expo
7/9
LWT+GERMANS
7/10
Old city and last day of festival, sang=mad
7/11
Ate dinner with Jale, had 58% bai jiu with the head of the department.
7/12
Taught English class about food, jale watched some part, ate lunch at fancy restaurant.
7/14
Taught English to little kids for several hours, they are sooo cute! They were from 1st to 4th grade then ate lunch at Tao laoshi’s house. Had some traditional Hubei food (fried sticky rice) and Ningbo dessert--wine dessert
7/15
Went to ci cheng again but this time with students…My wisdom tooth hurt like a mother!
7/22
Went to a water park in ning hai…it was basically a kiddie’s water park but still fun
7/23
Taught for the last time and ate a vegetarian meal for the first time
7/24
Had final dinner with head of foreign language department—thank god this time there wasn’t any 58% baijiu at the scene
7/30
Went to putuo mountain—it’s guan yin’s bday so mad people on the island. Saw heart stone, turtle stone, temples with beautiful decorations. spent night there, rode rv for first time one beach, climbed lots and lots of temple stairs!
7/31
Came back to Ningbo, hate rude people here especially when hailing taxi’s. think if they cut you they the shit and deserve the taxi—that shit is wrong!
8/2
Going to shanghai, couldn’t get a train ticket so big bused it to shanghai. So many people, taxi rate insane, traffic even more insane…
8/3
Went to xin tian di, chun huang miao, and the bund.
8/4
Stateside
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