limits

it is possible to just eat one meal a day and survive--only proves that i've lost my appetite for food and life.

past week

threw up now 3x
saw mr. bunny around mead and was about to catch it but it hopped away to a bush
hailed today for a good 3 mins
lost 5 lbs within two months unwillingly
lost appetite for food
don't eat every 2-4 hrs anymore

thoughts...

everything and everyone must come and go
as to abide to earthy rules
but the experiences one takes
shall forever haunt them
the good, bad or worse
the reality of it all is that everything is impermanent
emotions
material goods
relations
nothing is static
everything is flowing and moving on
with or without your consent

how fickle everything is ....

hanging on

After last night's phone conversation I feel less shattered, more put together since this whole thing started. I actually smiled and laugh though no one was able to see it, but I felt it. That melted away some of the hurt I've been feeling recently.

I'm not completely shattered.