Where am I now at this point?

I've been asked a lot recently about what I want to do with my life. Seriously, I don't have a fucking clue! Who does at this age? (unless you're like a genius or something...) I know I want to travel a lot now when I'm young even though I hate the plane rides to and from the place, but I do love being in new places. I still have the travel bug in me, but I'm also plagued by my sense of responsibility which will NOT allow me to travel at least for a long while. I have to pay my debt--aka STUDENT LOANS!

My plan though is to try to pay 1/3 of my loans by the end of the year and then think of another plan...

I think everything is easier said than done....

sigh~

Movie

Just finished a movie called ' A beautiful Life' but also known as 不再讓你孤單 in Chinese. It's also the name of an old song.

陳昇 is the artist...Here's the lyric to the song. I really liked the movie and it's a movie made to make people cry.

讓我輕輕的吻著你的臉　擦乾你傷心的眼淚
讓你知道　在孤單的時候　還有一個我 陪著你

讓我輕輕的對著你歌唱　像是吹在草原上的風
只想靜靜聽你呼吸　緊緊擁抱你 到天明

路遙遠　我們一起走 我要飛翔在你每個彩色的夢中　
陪著你

我從遙遠的地方來看你 要說許多的故事給你聽
我最喜歡看你胡亂說話的模樣　逗我笑

儘管有天我們會變老　老得可能都模糊了眼睛
但是我要寫出人間最美麗的歌　送給你

路遙遠　我們一起走　我要飛翔在你每個彩色的夢中
對你說　我愛你

我不再讓你孤單　我的風霜你的單純
我不再讓你孤單　一起走到地老天荒
我不再讓你孤單　我的瘋狂你的天真
我不再讓你孤單　一起走到地老天荒

路遙遠　路遙遠　我不再讓你孤單

Week 1

I hate what I'm doing right now. I'm not even learning anything that is challenging. Found out I'm not even getting vacation time, why should I even care what I'm doing then. I don't enjoy where I'm working right now nor do I care about the work. I'm only doing this as an obligation to my parents who are driving me crazy!

I even told them if they don't like me sitting in front of the computer playing games because I don't have anything to do I will find another job. I don't need this job.

Enough is enough.

Day 2

Got to work at 7:20am
Punched in my time sheet
Came up to the office
sorted through the files
did the expenses for yesterday
logged into bank accounts to get summary of $$
logged into all my social media accounts
went to deviantart to get some inspiration for some drawings
sitting here bored until lunch time

8hrs left to work...

(exciting thing: found a dollar on the way to work)

Remembered a year ago--I was in Ningbo enjoying a nice Brazilian BBQ meal with Nia and enjoying my all you can eat meat and drinks for Children Day. That was my first and last time celebrating Children's Day in China or anywhere else in the world.

Day 1 Working

After graduation I felt an immense sadness swelling in my heart. I started tearing in the car while my parents were arguing about the directions. I was told to rest for one week then start at my Uncle's Auto Body shop. I felt lost, heck I still feel lost. I'm officially out of MoHo's bubble. The bubble where everyone made you believe everything was fine or will be okay even when you know there is darkness lurking right outside the shiny gates of MHC.

The real world: dark, sad, alone, confusion, and oh so much more.
MoHome: safe, anything possible, friendly, bubble, and possibilities await at every turn.

I officially started working today. I had a crash course into what I had to do which is basically managing all the finance transaction in and out of the office. I'm getting decent paid considering I just got out from college and on top of that it's a family business. With my paycheck every week, I'll start paying my loans (all 3 of 'em) every week before the interest starts. After I pay the loans, gotta pay my parents as well (FML) to help out with the house stuff...THEN, I can save what's left of my paycheck to my account.

Did I mention real world suck. I'll be working 6 days a week, normal 8-6 job weekday and Saturday will be 8-3.

Weeeee~

should never aspire for anything--will only be let down no matter what.
don't strive for anything---the result will only be failure

two years

two years has passed--though no longer together, but there were happy times as well as sad. We should cherish both regardless. glad we happened.